Last Updated on June 11, 2020
Want to hear a true confession of a mom during the coronavirus pandemic?
Well here it is, I cried last night. Yep, I ugly cried after the kids went to bed. My husband had no idea what was going on. Honestly, at the time I didn’t know why I was crying either. It took some sleep and self-reflection to see it more clearly. I think I know why I cried last night. I am not a poet but occasionally poems help me to form my emotions into words.
I cried last night
…because I’m overwhelmed by the news
…because I’m sad for the world
…because I’m worried, worried I will do it wrong
I cried last night
…because I’m scared of family members getting sick
…because I’m responsible for keeping our house clean & stocked
…because the kids are already bored and arguing with each other and it’s only been 1 day
I cried last night
…because I’m going to miss hanging out with groups of friends for a book club or drinks
…because I don’t know how to homeschool my kids if it comes to that
…because I never aspired to be a full-time stay-at-home mom
I cried last night
…because I don’t know when it will be ok to visit my parents
…because I must nag at my kids and at husband about washing their hands more
…because I’m the primary caregiver when someone is sick in our home
I cried last night
… because I kept my cool all day in front of the kids, so they wouldn’t see me worry
… because I thought I was stronger than this
…because I’m uncertain how long this will all last
I cried last night
… to grieve our previous lifestyle
… I just needed to be sad
… I was overwhelmed with emotion
I cried last night
… but I won’t tonight
… but I can handle it
…but everything will be ok
I cried last night but I’m good now.
By, Andrea Chapman
It’s not easy throwing these thoughts out publicly. But I feel there might be others who need to know that you can be vulnerable and strong at the same time.
Hang in there mamas who can relate! Feel free to send me some true confessions of a mom during the coronavirus pandemic. [email protected]
